HOPELESS ROMANTIC

I rarely attend wedding ceremonies and I really get that oh-so-romantic feeling whenever I see lovers making vows to each other. Yesterday, we got to see a workmate make vow in front of God and all of us. It was a renewal of vows actually because she and her husband already got married through civil wedding almost a decade ago and it was just until now that they had decided to get married in the church.The saying of “I do”, the sweet love songs and the smiles of the bride and groom gave me that enthralling and enigmatic feeling of love and all that comes with it. 

I believe that all of us really wish and dream for a happily ever after. We dream of having that one true love to have and to live with for the rest of our lives and with whom we can share our journey and endeavors as the years will come. For a hopeless romantic like me, I really can’t help but try to think of having that same experience also, that immense feeling of loving someone and being loved back as well as that security of having someone who will be there to love and protect you through the years.

At this age, many already asked me whether I already have a boyfriend or not. And I already answered “NO!”for like a hundred times already. Sometimes I get annoyed because some people seem to make so much fuss about not having a boyfriend at my age. I’m single and it’s not really a big deal because I think that I’m still young and I’ve got so much more to go. I may not have found my one true love yet but I know he will eventually come. God will surely reveal him to me when the right time comes. On the other side though, there are also times when I get too pressured or should I say threatened because I still got no boyfriend. Many of the people I know, most of them actually, are in a relationship. Some of my friends are even married now and have children already. Sometimes, I get to ask if there is something wrong with me. Am I not lovable? Am I not that type of person who will get the attention of men? Or perhaps, just like some people have told me, I’m the type of person who is too choosy and sets standards and I may be overlooking someone who is already there because I’m trying to find my Mr. Perfect Guy. Someone even told me that some guys are just intimidated with me. That doesn’t sound so right, don’t you think so? How will they know how I will feel when in the first place they haven’t even tried their luck?

One friend of mine had this New Year’s wish of finding a boyfriend this year. I’m not too sure if I really want the same thing to happen with me but I do have hopes of finding a special friend ( laughs). I really want to find someone who can give me that “kilig” feeling again. Yes, again! Of course, we all have/had that “love or crush" who will give us that kilig factor and who will make us smile just by the sight of them but in my case I really have to forget that “someone” because I think that he’s not meant for me. Sad and disappointing! Hence, my goal for this year, move on and find a new crush! Just a new crush for now! HAHAHA :)