Hopeful Wanna-Be

There is this funny line that I read one time and it goes like this, “When God showered talents on earth, I must be sleeping”. That hit me! That was comical and yet metaphorically applicable for me. There are really times when I feel frustrated and feel like there is really nothing that I’m really excellent with. I’m neither a good singer nor a good dancer. Well, I can sing, but not really with a golden or angelic voice (sigh…). And when you see me dance, I’m probably one of the stiffest one you’ll ever see. I’m neither good in arts or sports. Ironically, I maybe tall and all that but I’m not really an athletic type. But I know how to play badminton and I love basketball, too. I just don’t know why the ball seems to weigh like it’s 10 pounds or more and I could hardly throw it into the ring. I’ve got a weak stamina too that’s why. I just prefer watching games rather than playing it. Lastly, I don’t know how to play any musical instrument except for xylophone. 

If you would ask me the top things that I want to have or learn, I really want to have a good singing voice and to learn how to play musical instruments, which include the piano, violin and guitar. I really love music and I really wish I could make good music on my own too. What an enormous desire!

 

I really admire the young guitarist named Sungha Jung. He is so good! And he really looks so cool and cute when he is playing his guitar! I wish I could be that good also! Here is one of his recently uploaded video on Youtube. He never fails to amaze me!

If ever I will learn how to play the piano, the first piece that I want to master is the Love Affair by Ennio Morricone! It’s one of my most favorite melody ever! It always gives me this nostalgic and soothing feeling. It’s really beautiful and I will never get tired listening to it.

You can’t really have it all! But the good thing is that God always gives you something that you can be totally good at! He doesn’t leave you empty-handed. Hence, all that you have to do is to hone what you innately have. And don’t ever try comparing yourself with others. Each and every person differs. Don’t think that you’re superior or inferior with what you have and don’t have. You don’t need to compete with anyone. I believe that you should only compete with your own self. You want to be better, try to better, as a way of self-improvement. Don’t take it as if like you are competing with others, instead gather inspiration from them. Anyway, there is always this thing called learning.

   

FRUITY CRAZE

Lately, I and my workmates have been very fond of playing this one particular game that I downloaded in the cellphone. It is called Fruit Ninja. Fruits appear one by one or even in multiple number and then you’ll just slash in with your fingertip so that the fruits will be cut. To add up with the thrill, bombs appear and you'll have to avoid those or else the game will be over. You should also avoid missing a fruit because you will only be given three misses. There, you play it and see who scores the highest.

I think the game is not so new anymore and we’re maybe late with the trend but it’s no big deal! It’s still fun! The advances in technology are really fascinating and you’ll never know how far and fast it will go. It does not only amuse the young generation but the older ones as well, not mentioning the fact that, at first, “touch technology” is a bit awkward for the beginners most especially with the older ones. By the way, I forgot to mention that my mother learned the game, too! And she really likes it! Really funny!

The cute thing is that whenever we play the game, there are always these hilarious reactions that one gives especially when the bombs appear, fruits are missed or the game is over. All of a sudden, someone talks or shouts crazily and then laughs with funny frustration. And everybody in the room laughs also. Funny moments, indeed!

So, why am I talking about these things now? I know one day we’ll get tired with the game or we’ll find another interesting game. But the memorable thing is the funny moments we had. The teasing with one another, the boredom solved and the laughter shared. Okay, I’m sounding too sentimental now. What I am just trying to say is that life’s pleasures come from simple things, most of it, I think! That’s all! :)

DICE

September has passed and another month is coming anew. Last month has been a struggle for me since I’ve had a hard time dealing with so many things. Well, there’s really nothing new with that because every now and then, problems and challenges come along the way. And sometimes, problems come unwaveringly and unexpectedly to a point that I feel like I’m really stuck and there is no way out. I feel heavy and miserable. But I don’t really let myself down for so long and I try to find ways to feel better, to be better. I always tell myself that there is always hope and I’ll get through the rough times.

So many things have happened.  Things aren’t working pretty well for me as of this moment. Things aren’t coming into fruition yet. And there are still so many things that I want to do! I feel so eager and I really want to hasten things. But what can I do? As much as I want to, I can’t have everything in just a snap.

Now, I’m with a heavy heart. But together with that oppressive feeling is the growing desire to do everything to make things good and well. I don’t lose hope. If you have a problem that is the one thing that you should never lose.Things may not be working out with the way that I’m expecting just yet, but I believe that everything will turn out just fine soon. Patience is all that I need. I trust in God’s will,too.

I may be sounding too dramatic now but what I’m just trying to imply is that there is nothing impossible to surpass. As long as you believe in your capabilities and trust God’s plans, there is always something better that will come on your way. You’ll feel sad now, and then you’ll feel happy after some time. You’ll feel like all of the world’s weight is upon you now, and the next time you’ll feel so jovial as if you’re like on top of the world. We always have to feel one thing and the other. That is the paradox of life.As the cliché says, life is like a wheel. There are always ups and downs. In every downfall comes success. I always hold on to that idea.

There is this very nice text message that came from a friend. It says, “Life is like rolling the dice. It has to be shaken to give something yet to be known. But the good thing is for every try, you get a move.” Inspiring, isn’t it? I think what it is saying is to take risks. There is no harm in trying. Do something for yourself. In such way, you’ll have no regrets. There will be no what ifs. If you don’t do something, nothing will change; there will be no progress at all. You’ll end up imagining about things that could have happened. But when you exert an effort to achieve something, it is a very good start. You may not get the result that you want all at once, but you can always give it another try. Try and try until you succeed!

BOOKWORM

Lately, I’ve been in the verge of reading books. I really love reading because, aside from sleeping and watching, it is one of the ways I rest my body after a hard and tiring day of work. What I find so fascinating with reading is that whenever I start opening and reading a book, I feel like I drift away and I’m taken into another world as I go through the story. I always try to imagine the characters and the setting and feel like I’m in there also as if like I’m an invisible spy listening and witnessing everything that’s happening.

When I went to Baguio City early this month, I bought books!That was my first priority! It was very timely because all of the books I bought are sale and I was able to buy them in a much cheaper price. If I only had a bigger budget, I would have bought more! The reason why I also prioritize buying books whenever I go to the city is because there is no bookstore in our province. Too bad, isn’t it?

So when I went home, I had these books with me. The book A Thousand Splendid Suns was lent to me by a good friend of mine (a certified bookworm too!). As of this moment, I'm already through with the last two books and I'm currently reading the Life of Pi. :)

I just finished reading this book. And you know what, this is the first book ever that I finished reading in just one day!It's a really nice book!I really loved the character of Charlie and Sam. It makes more excited to see the movie!Emma Watson is in the movie and that makes me much more excited!By the way, this book was a gift given to me from a very good workmate.So sweet!

  Right now, I'm earning again so that I'll be able to buy new books soon!The books included in my list are the following:

I hope that I'll be able to buy them really soon!!! In the meantime, I still got plenty to read and finish! Happy reading for me! :)

Close To You

This song has been clinging into my mind all day long and I've been repeatedly singing the first few phrases every now and then. This is one of my favorites! It's soothingly beautiful to my ears and I always have this "kilig" feeling whenever I hear it.I was reminded with this song when we were talking about the movie So Close this morning. And then, when we we're watching Minute To Win It on Fox, I saw this weird, creepy teaser of the new season of The Walking Dead with this song in it. I just can't get over with that! Really really bizarre!

THE FIVE PEOPLE YOU MEET IN HEAVEN: A REFLECTION

When I first saw this novel, I already had the eagerness to read it because it has quite a catchy title. I just finished reading the book last weekend. Indeed, it is an enticingly well-told story that will stir your emotions and open eyes about the realities of life. Hidden truths are revealed and learning is profoundly presented. It will make you wonder and imagine things in different perspectives. The book tells the story of Eddie who meets five people in heaven who had significantly affected his life. There is the Blue Man, the captain, Ruby, Marguerite and Tala. To make it concise, basically, it tells about how each and every person’s life is interconnected with another, that things happen as a cause of a certain action and not just a random matter; that in a certain point in life we have to make sacrifices; that we must learn to forgive; that there is that true love that will never end; and that we all live with a purpose.

The lessons in each and every encounter are nicely presented in such a way that you come to think about yourself and try to ponder with your own life as well. As I went on with my reading, many the times when I’m amazed with the realizations that I’m learning and made me think about my own life. How have I affected the lives of other people? I wish I haven’t caused someone else’s death! I wish my acts have done more good things than bad ones. Am I willing to make sacrifices for the benefit of others? Will I be able to do it without expecting something in return? How far can I go? Will I be willing to offer even my own life? How have others affected my life? How the things in the past have affected my life? I really wonder how! I just can’t help but wander off and try to imagine things this way and that way. If someone has done me wrong to the extent that I feel like my entire life is ruined, will I learn to forgive him? How can one true love change you as a person? I really wonder how it feels like to have someone who genuinely loves you, someone who cares for you and truly appreciates your value, someone who will make you happy, and someone who will be there for you in your high moments and most especially in your greatest downfall. On the other side, I also wonder how it feels to do the same thing, how to reciprocate that love.

Life always has its hidden truth. Some we find out later on and some may remain to unveiled until death, just like what happened with Eddie. I think the sad part is that Eddie got stuck with his past in such a way that he felt like there is really no worth of moving on forward. Not only was his physique wretched but also his soul. He also let his anger and resentment live within him. The good part is that, he has found someone whom he loved so much, his wife, and likewise loved him back. And he did not know that being at the Ruby Pier where he felt like he has none but an ordinary, routine work in the maintenance area, he was able live his life with a purpose; to make people happy, especially the children, and keep them safe. Even in the last minute of his life, he was able to save a little girl.

I have realized that there are so many things that are beyond man’s comprehension. I think God made it to be that way. We cannot understand everything that life has to offer. The only thing that we can do is to deal with it and try to maintain a positive outlook in life. When you feel so miserable in life, when you feel like all of the problems in life are upon you, think that there are many other people out there who are much more miserable than you do. As the saying goes, think of the blessings that you have instead of those that you don’t have. Try to be more understanding when dealing with other people. One important thing that I’ve learned from the novel is that, there are always two sides of a story; known and unknown. Your side and theirs. Perhaps, you’re on the right side and they are on the wrong. It can also be the other way around. Moreover, you can be either right or wrong. The important thing to do is that, try to be more understanding and do no harm to others. Let things be in a peaceful manner and avoid violence. Love your family, friends and special one unconditionally. They are your world’s greatest treasures. Forgive those who have done you wrong. Love your life! Love what you do! Think and act in such a way that you contribute something for the good of others. Live a good life! I believe that we all have this innate goodness and pureness of heart and that’s what we should bring out.

Perhaps, some of you may get bewildered with the things that I’m trying to point out because you haven’t read the book yet. I really intended not to elaborate much with the story. I suggest that you should read the book, too. I bet you will have an adventurous reading experience and you’ll gather inspirational learning.

I wonder how heaven will be like for me. Who will be the five people I will meet then?